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Stagnation in Life

There are times when you feel nothing is really moving forward. The monotony of the day to day conundrums of life takes its toll and you end up with a feeling of nothingness - having done nothing, feeling nothing - kinda numb. I hate this feeling. Of late, I have been feeling lost. There are a number of plans in the horizon but I feel that I lack the enthusiasm to carry them out or even pursue them. My work at office has become pretty boring. The studies and all - I have pretty much lost interest. Painting, drawing, playing games - everything seems mundane and ordinary. I can feel that I need to wind up and retreat. Take time off to do basically nothing. That might just help.

Over the last couple of weeks a number of things happened though. I drew a girl. Another very sweet friend came over from Mumbai to Bangalore with a permanent transfer. One of my best friends is on a nervous breakdown-a-marathon. My dad sold his old and my favorite motor cycle like a ninja, sold his old Maruti 800 to a family friend and bought a Swift. My mother informed that she will be coming to Bangalore by last week this month, I called up brother after doing some Saraswati puja(both are worth mentioning), Modi rocked at Kolkata or so I heard and another friend in Bangalore went a little more forward with his grand plans to cleanse India. So yeah - a pretty ordinary month so far.

I have grandiose plans as ever though. I have shortlisted Arduino UNO/Starter Kit to begin with the robotics experiments. True - these are amateurish and simple, but one gotta know how to crawl before they can run, right? Let's see what comes off these. Wish me luck - I'll need it.

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